Non harming

I'm in a battle with logic and reason.

Who and/or what decides what can or cannot be done?
Who can tell me why?
Who am I to say no, yes, maybe?
Who am I to decide?
Should this battle be fought?
Or has it already been won?

Is there a purpose for contorting my brain
More than I contort my body?
Should both be left alone in a sedentary manner
Or is contortion the key to the battle?
Is the pain of unknowing the price of the fight
Or a failure of acting non-harming?

I think the answer is in yourself
What you really want
versus what you want yourself to want.
When that question is answered
the battle will have been won.
But first
you have to practice non-harming.