Greatness

"Greatness is always built on this foundation: the ability to appear, speak and act, as the most common man."
- Shams-ud-din Muhammed Hafiz

Try. Never stop trying.

"I cant accept the world the way it is. It's too horrible. So I have to try to change it. My choice is either take it or do something about it--or try to do something about it. I think we have an obligation to those who have died...to those who have survived...to try. Never to stop trying to make it a more humane world. And that's what I do, and I ask others to do the best they can. Try. And if we try hard enough and long enough, I'm confident it will come about."
--Ben Ferencz, Nuremberg Prosecutor

mini-reflection

Best decisions of the past few years:
-going to Ghana
-working my butt off in Ghana
-allowing myself to go in and out of a "relationship" for 4 years in order to discover the importance of family
-working as a mechanic
-going to India
-beginning my Mysore yoga practice
-staying true to my SELF, not another's idea of my self

I hope that one day I stop crying.

Specifically about the state of the world.

Videos with graphics entailing human brutality, children dying from severe acute malnutrition, the rape in both developed and developing countries, the violence against people based on race caste creed religion--I can keep going for days.

I don't understand people in the world.

I don't understand the inherent evil.

I don't understand the chronic state of hate.

The only thing that stops my rabid emotions is action. When I get my hands dirty, work my butt off, and turn emotions on due to overwork instead of helplessness.... That's it.

People wonder why I work so hard. People question the "work ethic." People question my motives. It's to keep my mind at ease. It's to make me feel better about myself. That's pretty much it--I'm a workaholic to get rid of SOME of that helpless feeling.

I'm currently filling my mind with thought, opinions, and plans for the world. When I finish, I hope to see how it all works out. I hope to dive in and get the ball of my workaholic nature rolling. Soon soon soon. I guess I just need to be patient and breathe.